For me, this year has brought lots of joy, love and happiness, but it has also been a year of some difficult times and journeys...
I laid my beloved mother to rest a little over a week ago and it has taken me to a deep place of appreciation, respect and solitude.
It has taken me through waves of emotion that sometimes encompass me in my thoughts for hours. It is so difficult to watch someone you love commit to fighting a health battle and feel like you are seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, only then to see them decline, and leave this earthly realm far too soon.
Truly I think, there is no way possible to venture through this type of situation without trust in that one fabulous 5 letter word.... FAITH.
I thank God for keeping that word ever present in my heart.. Even if at times faith feels small or far away.. a little voice inside me says"remember faith"..
It seems strange to say that the last 4 or 5 days I spent with my mom as she was trying to recover were some of the most joyful... We were Laughing, joking, watching silly TV shows, going on wheelchair rides to the healing garden and getting pedicures in her hospital room. I will be forever thankful for those special moments.
I have also been seeing friends lose loved ones, families who are struggling with health issues, and people too saddened to live in the moment, which brings me to the title of this posting, "The Empty Bucket List."
You see, I will be celebrating a milestone birthday soon, and because of this I started a bucket list. Things I want to do, experience, see. Most of the things are simple pleasures, things I've wondered about or found intriguing, but never found the time to do. During one of my recent morning reflection times on my front porch swing, it hit me.
I want to have a bucket list but I want that bucket for the most part to be empty, meaning I'm not going to let there be lots of things on that list.. Why? Because I am going to LIVE AND DO my bucket list. Starting today and EVERYDAY.
So today, I am doing one of the many things on my bucket list.
I have always wanted to take a long train journey.
Now of course, because of my nature, I am sure I am over glamorizing what this experience will be like. I envision it like the old days... When gentleman wore suspenders and suits and ladies wore hats and gloves. I am sure it will be much more casual and ordinary today, but you know what? I am going to make out of it how I saw it on my bucket list.
So off I went to the train station wearing my hat and gloves...
I am sure once I've been on the train a few hours, I will be escaping to the bathroom to put on my sweat pants, but for now, I am a happy girl who has one less thing on my bucket list. I'm doing it my way and I wish to encourage everyone to do the same.
Live in the moment... keep your glass full, but your bucket list empty. I do believe I may have discovered keeping my bucket list empty will be one of the greatest things I've ever done in my life...
Blessings and love to you my friends..xo